Back in December I got a phone call from my little sister that made my world come to a complete halt. Suzanna called me and told me that she was pregnant. It was one of those days that you will never forget, but one of those days you desperately want to. If you know me, you know the love I have for my siblings. It is a different kind a love. It is a maternal love. Finding out my little sister-my barely 20 year old, unwed sister was pregnant was devastating to me. If I could have gone to bed for the next 9 months, I think I just would have. It was Matt, Hudson, and Harper that got me out of bed each day.
I will say that these last few months have been some of the hardest I have ever walked through. I have learned a lot about myself as a person and my character. I have had to lean on God more than ever to walk me through this. To help me love Colt, to help me accept him for my sister. I was very selfish in the beginning of all of this because Matt and I were ready to begin trying for our #3, and then we put our plans on hold because this just is not the right time for us. It has been a soul-searching journey, but through it all God has been so good and so faithful. Only He can receive the glory for where we are today in this journey.
Thankfully the Lord has blessed me with wonderful friends and a loving, supportive husband. My friends have prayed so boldly for God to soften my heart towards Suzanna and Colt. I have cried to them, and have been brutally honest with my feelings about this situation. I have mourned the 'loss' of 'what could have been' because she is having to grow up oh so very fast. I ache that she is facing trials that I never knew. But I will say this, I am so confident that we serve a God who is much bigger than my small mind and expectations. We serve a God who can turn a sinful situation and repentful heart into something beautiful. I am hopeful for Suzanna and Colt, and I am so very proud to be her big sister. Matt and I are in their corner and will always be. We will be their prayer warriors.Suzanna and Colt got married at my dad's house on Friday. It was so sweet. Suzanna was glowing. I was proud to take Colt in as a part of our family. I look forward to watching what the Lord has in store for their lives. I am confident that if He is at the core of their relationship they-will-not-fail. I am excited to become an aunt. I have always said (even though I always thought I'd be pushin 40 before I ever became one) I'd be the BEST AUNT THERE EVER WAS....well, ya'll can take that one to the bank!!!
So if you all have been wondering where I have been the last few months...here it is. I ask that you please join me in praying for Suzanna, Colt, and their precious baby who is due in August.
Allison
ReplyDeleteas always I am reminded by you that when we are honest with God and with those around us He can work in our lives in amazing ways that we could never have imagined. I will be thinking and praying for all of you!
I love you!
Martha
I think you wrote out how you have been, and are feeling beautifully. This is a great picture of Suzanna & Colt. I will keep all of your family in my prayers.
ReplyDeletewow, Al...thx so much for being honest. praise God for His mercy & love! i will totally be praying for Suzanna, Colt & the baby!
ReplyDeleteWhat beautiful honesty! I know that the Lord is using you to bless them during this time & what a wonderful example of a mother she has in you. I know she will always look to you for advice & love!
ReplyDeleteI will definitely be praying for your sister, Colt, and baby. Thanks for being so honest!
ReplyDeleteI love this entry because your were so honest. I will be praying for you, your sis, Colt & the baby. Thanks for being a great example to them & others. You are an amazing Godly woman & mother.
ReplyDeleteI pray that God blesses this situation.
you WILL be the best aunt there ever was! You are certainly an amazing mama! Praying for your sister, Colt, and the sweet baby on the way.
ReplyDeleteGirl, you will ROCK as an aunt! Thanks for your honesty in this post. I know you love your family to bits, I will lift them up in prayer today.
ReplyDeleteWhat an absolutely amazing sister you are to her! Your honesty was incredible! You are such a strong woman and what an incredible role model you are to your sister. I will be praying for your family and them as you all go through this.
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain in this. I just haven't figured out how to deal with it yet, so thank you for this post!
I am proud of you for sharing. I love you to bits and I am praying for Suz and Colt, their growing family, and for the big things God has in store for them. Love you!
ReplyDeleteAl, you are the worlds best sister. I am beyond lucky to have you. You truly are my rock and I love you because you are so honest and I can count on you for lifes greatest advise. I know it wasn't easy to write this, but I am so proud of you for being so honest. I know you will be the best aunt ever!! My love for you cannot be put into words. Thank you for everything!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd to all of you praying for Colt, the baby, and I.. I am thanking yall from the bottom of my heart. I know the road we are on will not be easy. However we know our God can move mountains and I like Allison said, I believe he can turn something sinful into something beautiful. Thank you all so much.
Suzanna
I've been wondering (almost worried) about you. This explains why you haven't been yourself. Hang in there! You will be a WONDERFUL Aunt!
ReplyDeleteAllison, I have watched you struggle and grow in your journey with this and know that you are completely committed to Suz, Colt, and their baby. When you do "anything", you do it with your whole being, whether it is grieving or rejoicing. Now, you can take that "anger energy" and channel it into something phenomenal! Your journey has taught me a lot, too.
ReplyDeleteSuzanna, we love you so much and will always keep you in our prayers. We know that "with God all things are possible". We know that with God's love and guidance, you and Colt can give that precious little soul what he/she needs. The best thing to give is a committed, loving marriage and you two have shown that is what you want to do...congratulations.
Love,
Karen
Sweet friend, thanks for sharing this. You love your sister so much, and it is amazing how difficult it can be to trust God with those we love. I know that you are one of the best supports Suzanna can have right now, and I know that God is glorified in your love for her and Colt. Your testimony is a wonderful example of His faithfulness and the fact that He restores us in all things. Congratulations on becoming an aunt, you will be the best aunt ever! I can't wait to read about all the adventures Hudson and Harper have with their new cousin!
ReplyDeletewhat a testimony of love you are to your family and all. praying God's richest blessings on your beautiful sister and family on each day ahead!
ReplyDeleteYour sister is lucky to have such a great example and role model in you. Even though it is hard, I think your honesty and love for her, Colt and the baby means so much!
ReplyDeleteI think it is great how much you love your sister; she is so blessed to have you in her life, and I know you will be a source of encouragement, support and strength in the times ahead as she is now a wife and soon-to-be new mommy to this precious little baby. I always wished I had a sister to have such a bond with; hope yall are always forever close.
ReplyDeleteI have absolutely no doubt in my mind that you will be the best aunt ever! I know from experience how hard it can be when you watch your siblings make choices that make their lives harder, but I can tell you are still the supportive, loving big sister that you have always been! I will join you in praying for your sister and her family!
ReplyDeleteI love the poetry of our God creating beauty from ashes. One of the first beauties that will come from these ashes will be a baby, who no doubt will be loved immensely. We know that's coming -- but only He truly knows ALL the beauty that is in store. Aren't we so blessed to be able to put our hope in that? love you girl!
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